If you’ve been following for a while you’ve probably realized how infrequently I post. There’s a reason for that and it’s the same reason that I’ll probably never be a “successful” indie author:
If writing feels like work I don’t do it.
It’s just that simple, if writing feels like a chore than I stop. I’m sure there are some very talented, smart people rolling their eyes at that but give me a chance to explain.
I’ve loved writing for almost as long as I can remember. I loved it because it was such an amazing way to escape the daily grind, to explore new worlds in new ways. But the biggest reason that I loved to write was because it was FUN. Creating characters, coming up with back stories, coming up with a creative twist is just so much fun.
Over the last year that I’ve been seriously writing, putting time and energy into finishing projects, there are so many things that I’ve learned. One of the biggest lessons is that you can’t fake it. And really, you shouldn’t even try. If you’re writing to make money or fans, or if you’re not into the project or scene, it shows. I could force myself to write a blog post every week but then it would be work, it wouldn’t be fun, the posts would be uninspired, and I don’t delude myself into thinking that readers aren’t smart enough to realize that.
What this also tells me is that I’m probably never going to be an indie success story. I don’t like social media, I don’t like marketing, I don’t like putting myself out there, branding myself sounds painful, and half of the tips for success would be a lot of work. I could do all of that, I could do all the “right” things, I could form myself into the shape of the box, but that would turn this thing that I love into a job. I already have a job, I write because I love it. And I’m certain that even if I did those things the writing wouldn’t be the same, the lack of fun would come across in anything I published. I want more than that and readers certainly deserve better.
So, I’m not going to fight it, I’m going to write what I want, when I want, and continue to enjoy myself. And if I end up making any money, or gather millions of fans, that’ll just be a bonus. If enjoying what I do means that I’ll never be a big “success”, well, I suppose that really depends on your definition of the word.